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I don’t think Jasmine understands just how large her feet are. Sometimes she’ll face plant into the grass because she doesn’t know how to walk. Haha sounds like me. Between the two of us, we’ve eaten our fair share of dirt.

On Wednesday night, for the first time in her entire life, she wanted to play with her tug toy. I didn’t have to demand she put the thing in her mouth. I didn’t have to act like a psycho and squeal in delight to get her excited. She was actually willing to play with the tug!!

So we played and of course Jasmine fell on her face in pure delight like she always does when she gets what she wants. After she tripped over herself, that’s when I noticed her limping. She wouldn’t put her full weight on one of her hind legs.

Jasmine’s limped before, and I’ve always been able to figure out what was wrong. A few weeks ago, one of her shoulders was stiff for a day because she decided to sleep like she was possessed and survived an exorcism. And another instance was when I brought her home for the first time and she had these scabby, pus-filled rashes on the skin in between the pads of her feet—she’s allergic to grass. So that was an easy fix with antibiotics, foot baths, and an allergy shot. I’m practically a licensed doctor!

So when she started limping this time, I assumed she got stung by a bee, or a demonic form of an allergic reaction woke up from hibernation. I went through every possibility in my head and narrowed it down to her spraining a toe.

Come this weekend’s personal protection class, I had messaged the DW telling him Jasmine and I probably weren’t going to go if she was still limping. He suggested we show up for obedience because it was minimal walking and we could target where her pain is actually coming from.

Ple-e-ease, DeeDub. I already knew the pain was coming from her toe, but I’ve learned to trust what the DW says. At this point, her and I had been pretty much sleeping for two days straight. Some walking would be good.

On Saturday, Jasmine and I did our obedience routine for the DW and the evaluator (yes, the freaking evaluator for our final evaluation in 2 weeks just *happened* to be there to check the dogs out).

 

 

You can imagine my anxiety, I’m sure. After obedience, the Dog Whisperer had me lay her down and told me this didn’t look like a minor injury and I should get her knee checked.

The rest of the morning, I continued to tell everyone she had a sprained toe. But honestly, after hearing the hesitation behind the DW’s tone, I was scared. I was also embarrassed because my girl possibly had a serious injury and I couldn’t even recognize it! She didn’t whine. She didn’t yelp. She just smelled flowers like usual and had a funny gait. But she wasn’t getting better.

Jasmine sat and watched her canine buddies during the remainder of the class. Immediately after, I drove her to a radiologist for X-rays, or an MRI, or anything to give me confirmation I was right and the professionals were wrong.

I was early for my early check-in. When we finally met with the vet, within five minutes she said, “Well, Jasmine has a torn ACL.”

My. Heart. Sank.

All this time I thought she sprained her toe! What about her TOE? Why didn’t anyone tell me it was her knee? 😡

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I can’t believe I waited 2 whole days before taking her in. AND! Her final evaluation is in 2 weeks! The world is concaving in on itself. Thankfully, the DW reassured me it’s not the apocalypse and everything will be okay. I was still horrified, but I remember everything he said in vivid detail. For once what I wanted him to tell me and what he *actually* told me aligned, and I was grateful for that. My following panic attack wasn’t as bad as it could have been.

The vet gave me a 1-month supply of pain medication so Jasmine wouldn’t be uncomfortable until her surgery in early October. She will also be able to do her evaluation at the end of September. But if Jasmine doesn’t want to do anything, I’m not going to force her. If she chooses to sleep during protection class, I’m going to let her do just that. Besides letting her wander wherever she wants, she’s on bed rest (which I don’t think she minds at all). After speaking to the surgical team, they said it would cost around $4000 for an ACL reconstruction. I don’t believe that includes physical therapy which I’m sure we’ll have to do together. Then she’ll be out of commission for 8 weeks.

I’m not entirely sure how I feel right now. When I tore my ACL in 2010, that was the end of my professional dance career. I stopped teaching. Bye bye to dance workshops. And seeing Jasmine have to go through the same thing brings back all of those emotions when I decided to live off Happy Meals and pursue my other passions. I still don’t think I’m over my own mental hurdle. I’ve never admitted that to myself before, but there you have it.

I guess I’m angry and frustrated. Sad about the timing and any pain Jasmine might be feeling (as I’m writing this, she’s snoring next to me in complete bliss).

While Jasmine isn’t scared, I am scared for her. And I don’t want my fears to keep us from growing.

That’s about all I can say about it right now. Godspeed, my sweet girl.

 

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Comments:

  • Amelia

    September 15, 2019

    India. I am SO SORRY. I can’t even begin to describe how my heart hurts right now. And right before the evaluations! You are 100% an amazing dog mom and she will have a very speedy recovery. I hope it’s not too invasive 🙁 I’m so sorry.

  • Lanie Justice

    September 15, 2019

    WE LOVE YOU JASMINE! RECOVER WELL!

  • Parker Tuck

    September 15, 2019

    I’m so sorry about Jasmine. My lab tore one of his but I couldn’t afford the surgery. He’s fine now, but just not as active.

  • Karen

    September 15, 2019

    I’m SO sorry. Jasmine will be better soon. She has so many people who love her and she’ll bounce back!

  • Parle-Vous

    September 15, 2019

    I’m so sorry! Jasmine is so sweet and I hate seeing her in pain. Good thing the DW told you to get her knee checked.

  • Tracy

    September 15, 2019

    i was hoping it was really her toe. i was really really hoping.

  • Sally

    September 15, 2019

    I am so sorry 😪

  • Nomad-Wanderer

    September 16, 2019

    What about your thru-hikes you’re going to take her on? What’s the likelihood of her tearing the other one? I’m just so sorry she’s going through this.

  • Oliver and Samantha

    September 16, 2019

    Jasmine, we love you!

  • Katrina Sanchez

    September 16, 2019

    Good luck, Jazz!

  • Monica Lancey

    September 16, 2019

    This was hard to read. I love you India and Jasmine!

  • Melissa Lipsey

    September 16, 2019

    My thoughts are with you! I’m praying she’ll be fit enough to get through her evaluation and I kno you and the DW will make the best decision with her.

  • Pat

    September 16, 2019

    Jasmine is badass and will conquer any obstacle! You both will get through this. We love you Jazz!

  • Jessica

    September 16, 2019

    I’m just sad! Two weeks before her evaluation. You’ll do what’s best. If she gets through her evaluation with a torn ACL, she will DEF be the coolest dog on the block. But your right, her health comes first and it’s so caring of you to put her first.

  • Chris H

    September 16, 2019

    Good luck to you both and the DW!

  • Rie Harris

    September 16, 2019

    Damn! I just read your article in IDAHO and cried and now I’m crying again! You are the best dog mom and you two will get through this.

  • Lauren

    September 16, 2019

    Wishing you a speedy recovery, Jaz!

  • Books_daisy

    September 16, 2019

    Jasmine 🙁 we love you

  • Ami

    September 16, 2019

    We love you Jasmine! You will get through this with the DW and Indy! We love you all!

  • Inez Hernandez

    September 16, 2019

    our sweet girl. 🙁

  • Jessie-Cakes

    September 16, 2019

    jasmine! poor girl. she will get through this i know she will! wishing you a fast recovery pretty girl!

  • Hannah

    September 16, 2019

    This makes me so sad. Two weeks before the evaluation! Good luck, Jasmine!

  • Fiona U

    September 16, 2019

    India, I am so sorry about Jasmine. This happens so often to larger dogs and I wish Jazz a fast recovery! My thoughts will be with you!

  • Court Kay

    September 19, 2019

    Good luck, JAZZ!

  • Yvette

    September 19, 2019

    We love you, Jasmine! Good luck with the surgery!

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